I swear Madoka is one of the only series where the whole audience overlooks the opening sequence and expected it to be something completely different. It told you what it was going to be right away. That's how shows usually package themselves. A light and fluffy story? It most certainly isn't.

Well, what room do I have to talk. This is somebody who went in knowing Mami was going to die. For some weird my memory fails me. I thought I watched it from the start, but I vividly remember watching it after the massive flood of spoilers graced the Internet and knew a head was about to roll. So I guess I watched it after her death (which was unfortunate, considering my own dad's death was around this time exactly... Madoka episode four was the only episode I streamed as it aired in Japan, and what a depressing thing to do when I was depressed already. Go me).

Seriously, we have a race against the time scenario from the start. A dark sky with a gigantic monster flying high above, and the implementation of Kyubey's wish. Not to mention it ends with Homura almost falling to her death if you don't already realize this series is time travel. And while we knew the series was about the future for a start, the fan theories about Homura's time travel ability wasn't even revealed until episode 10. Then it was hailed as one of the most epic episodes a lot of people had seen. At least, that's what I saw said so far back.

I have to admit, I loved the series watching it originally and wondered all these things back then myself. It's just so obvious now what the whole intention was, and we had that extra month inbetwen episodes 10 to 11-12 because of the Fukushima tsunami. There was a loooot of extra time to evaluate about fan theories and decide how things would end. Maybe that's why Mami's death was still so shocking. Even most gruesome shows don't have a main girl dying so immediately with her head eaten off.

Still glad we ended up Madokami, though. Madokami is a blessing to the universe.

Felt like simply musing on this, I guess.
Haven't posted here for a while...

So, one of the biggest breakthroughs in news this week is that the Supreme Court ruled gay marriage is legal in all the United States. Which is a wonderful thing, and I'm glad that everyone who wants to be married can be now! All Friday I was pretty estatic about it. Rainbows were everywhere on Twitter and Tumblr choking me and I loved every moment. Even though I don't think I'll be married any time in the near future, the thought of being married at all in my state, where gay marriage wasn't allowed and almost was until it was shot down, would have been inequal in every way to me. Alabama apparently banned straight as well as gay weddings in protest, though that won't last forever.

I also finished two classes for summer session one. One class was an English/art class that blended storytelling with collage. It was fun, though I don't think my projects were the best and I could do better with better materials. Oh, and I also did a class about Brazilian film history. We watched a few from the 1960/70's (or set in) such as Black God, White Devil and Four Days in September. But I'll tell you, the one that shocked me the most was Carandiru. A violent film, that. But also an interesting look into prisons that doesn't whitewash anything.

Before I took this class, and even the art class, I wasn't sure about either one of them. But now that I've taken them, I'm glad that I did. They both opened my eyes to a few new ways of storytelling not only with paper but cinema as a whole. And I learned how to talk about film a little bit. It was an experience.

For next session I had the choice between an English class that's about writing for the Internet, or a speech class. I planned to go with the speech class because it's from 1-4 in the afternoon. The other is 6-9 at night. Still, I'm feeling sort of weary recently, and I thought perhaps taking a break to write during this summer break would prepare me for the fall. I have upcoming English classes.

Oh, and my buying has picked up again. I recently discovered Mandarake's wonders. Apparently SAHRA is a warehouse and has everything predetermined in shipping, so I use that as a basic guide to how my other orders will be charged for shipping (I've gotten away without outrageous amounts of shipping until now, amazingly). I've only made one order from Umeda. Some X telecards and a small Nanoha/Fate plush set... I know, I should have thought that order through better, but now I'm glancing through as much as I can and adding the necessary items to my favorite list so I'll always have something on stand-by. I particularly know the CLAMP section by heart right about now. The Nanoha, Madoka, and K-ON! sections aren't safe from my clutches, either.

Actually, the real reason I went ahead and bought the plushies and telephone cards so hastily was because of the Tokyo Babylon Shoten. I'm smitten with it for obvious reasons. I had it all lined up in the shop with a nice order in Nagoya. But BAM. Somebody bought that right before me (and the CLAMP News 7# with Subaru on the cover because I thought, hey why not, it's cheap). It made me sad. Oh, well. At least I didn't go overboard. That was a few weeks ago, but I'm still working on my next order as we speak. I'll probably ramble about that later. I'm looking at Amazon Marketplace for items, but I'm on the fence about it.

No, actually, I've been looking for CLAMP merch over the artbooks all morning. As well as trying to write. We'll just have to see what this amounts to.
I have overslept way too much recently. I mean, way too much. And I'm going to post this here, because maybe it'll kick me into gear if I read it clearly.

It's not because I really want to. Besides laziness I think it's because my sense of drive has sort of drained away from me during the last few months. And that goes against the one post I declared I would do better on writing more. Still working on that. Yuletide helped me out a bit.

Well, I am doing both. Reading and writing. But not in the copious amounts that should feel self-fulfilling. Mostly on the writing. And I need to get myself to remember that. Once again, but the reality is setting in finally.

To be frank, though, that one week my sleepiness was justified. It was the weather, I swear. I absolutely was half sleeping while sitting up in my chair (some of this happened before even when I had sufficient sleep the night before, or I just don't know). Despite how valient my efforts were my tiredness boiled over apparently. It doesn't seem to be happening anymore though. But I really do blame the weather that week; I was oversleeping all over the place that week, at home and school alike. Sitting up in my chair and all.

Actually, that "sleepy" week really is grey in my memory. I don't remember it very well because it felt dull and lifeless. And even in front of other people... I just wanted to sleep? Do you see how this is honestly not my fault? I tried to stay awake, and I failed. The weather's fault!

Now it's the spring, and the summer is fast approaching. So I shouldn't have to be sleepy until winter like that again. But it's strange because winter usually don't do that to me to begin with.

Now if you'll excuse me I have both a Asian history and a journalism final to write. By the end of this weekend.
Sometimes I do get a little bogged down by accurately checking facts, but I also think it's the natural cycle of writing and I'm surprisingly not that strict with myself. While in the midst of writing checking a fact or two through Google can vastly improve what I want to say. I think it gives what I'm trying to say life. When it gets tedious and becomes time-consuming, though, I think it's best to just write and take some liberties until. Afterwards, you can check what you need to make the scene work. This only really proves as a major problem to me if you're writing a crime/mystery story.
Old issue that isn’t really important these days, but I’ve thought of it recently again.

The main reason I’m annoyed at RP Buddy Search isn’t because they let it die. Once upon a time last year they were the most active place I knew to post RP ads.

I liked RP Buddy Search when it was around, but they aren’t at all since shortly after leaving. The mods put the entire thing down and nobody can access the posts.

Okay, you guys are busy and may or may mot reboot this year as it says in your note. Fine. Honestly, I think you should have left a last post of explanation and abandoned it that way. Not put the whole blog offline when there were ads that could still be looked back at a few months later.

Do you guys realize how many posts were there from the summer? There were tons. I wondered how many were stuck in the submission limbo until it was taken offline. A wealth of good ads poofed. It doesn’t sit right with me.

Sometimes I can’t help remembering this when I try to advertise my ad on Tumblr. Ads can be reposted, obviously, but I did feel some sense of loss from it sll.
So the closest I have gotten to reading Vivid is about a chapter, I think. Then I read the first chapter of Force and promptly forgot everything I had seen. This happened a long time ago. Now, I have read some of Innocent. Still need to work on catching up, Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by how many side materials that are in Nanoha I haven't gotten to.

The Vivid anime will remedy the fact I haven't seen Vivid. I welcome Nanoha and all my favorite characters with open arms! Despite the first two movies having come out the last few years there will surely be new people joining in on the happiness that is the Nanoha universe with a brand new TV anime rolling in for fresh, impressionable eyes to see.

At first I thought the anime would happen this summer (I remember that being announced somehow?) but I am totally stoked it's coming in the spring. Just like StrikerS before it. Well, except eight years later. But it's finally happening! The manga were supposed to test the waters, I believe, and we have our result for (impatient) waiting.

And Nana Mizuki and Yukari Tamura are reprising their roles as opening and ending singers. Okay, so they've sung the OP/ED for everything and it was guaranteed, but I've seen some people say it'd be better to switch them out to keep things fresh. I can see where they're coming from. Still, having them is a Nanoha tradition in the show and movies alike and I wouldn't want to have it changed any other way.

Besides, the third season of Dog Days is airing this winter. I have to watch the second season yet. It seems to have hit off on a good beginning from what I have heard with more of a possible plot incoming. In all, it's just a total treat to get so much at once.

I really hope Vivid isn't that short. Since it's been a while it might one cour. But it does well maybe it'll get an additional season. Hard for to me judge because I haven't read it. There's a tournament going for it. Those always take forever to get through, right? You can't fault me for wanting to have copious amounts of the Nanoha series in my life, in any case.
So earlier this year as my sort of New Years resolution to myself I dragged all of my stories to [personal profile] wildfireblossom. None of my stories will be listed here anymore. Not that I think anyone really read anything here besides a few passerby, possibly.

From the start I felt like it would be necessary to divide up my creations from my personal ramblings. Maybe I will also post other essay type things here and move them over if they're relevant. So I suppose this is my journal to experiment with now for the better or worse.

Really, stories and personal info didn't look at all good enough to clump together. This journal still needs sprucing up with my tags and getting new friends. I can progress on that in good time.

I kind of wish I had made another New Years Resolution. Would I keep it? If I really wanted to. But I don't think it's necessary when I need to improve on writing most—that's my true killer.

I think the silent, solemn promise I made to myself is to write productively, hence wildfireblossom. And review more fics. So far I haven't done so well on these fronts, but I have some things in waiting which should redeem my tardiness to that. And comments that have yet to be posted until I make sure my comments are good. Sometimes I feel as though nobody would care about my opinions. I might as well say something, I suppose.

Maybe it's not so bad after all.
Those feels when you’ve taken a little over fours nod a half years of Japanese and you’ve taken the JLPT N3 this past month and have little to no idea if you'll actually pass. Then when you try to translate something you realize it’s a little too difficult. Still! It’s worse when you have the gist of what’s being said, you know? And you just can’t piece it all out.

Maybe I did start learning Japanese just because I love anime and manga. I stuck with it and I’m even putting up with kanji happily enough. As much as the idea is pure insanity and I still need to study my workbook packets very thoroughly.

The N3 annoyed me. It's true what they say about it—the test isn't everyday Japanese like, you know, you should be learning and using. I swear there were so least three Japanese women there who flat out said it was difficult/stuff native speakers don't normally use all the time, my proctor included. It's useless in its own way but a milestone to work towards if you want to be certified for work related purposes.

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2014 was an interesting year, I guess. I can't really say I had any life-altering events happen, and I can't say anyone else would be thrilled by it all, but I pored a lot of time into classes such as the JLPT and gift fanfics. And that's all I can really ask for.

As my special mention, this year was also the year of SeiSub for me. Technically I fell in love with them last year, but I did so much to read fics and understand their characters it became a huge part of my happiness unlike anything else. Getting involved with CLAMP stuff even more than I've ever been was awesome.

I made some friends. I started some RPs, but not as many as even last year. More than anything, I did a full Yuletide story and a treat. That's something I have't done and accomplishes the "get my act together" post I made in September.

I also wrote two friend presents. Zelda's is still pending, but I'm almost done! Mostly the descriptions are in my way. On the topic of writing, I also started journaling. I'd heard of LJ years ago (one of my favorite anime blogs was an LJ), but I never really used LJ for myself. But now that I heard of Dreamwidth, and they say most of the fandom activity is out here now, I hope to stay here for a while to come.

All I can hope for from the New Year is to write great things. And maybe find another fandom to obsess over besides TB/X. But I honestly doubt that'll happen, because man do I love me some TB/X.

Anime I finished worth a shoutout:

Ao no Exercist
Asobi ni Iku yo!
B Gata H Kei
Black Lagoon (seasons 1 & 2)
Boku wa Tomodachi ga Sukunai (seasons 1 & 2)
Dantalian no Shoka
Fate Zero (seasons 1 & 2)
Fortune Arterial: Akai Yakusoku
Genei wo Kakeru Taiyou
Haibane Renmei
Hidan no Aria
IGPX Immortal Grand Prix 2
Inugami-san to Nekoyama-san
Kamisama no Inai Nichiyoubi
Knights of Sidonia
Kuroshitsuji (seasons 1 & 2 & OVAs)
Mahou Shoujo Madoka★Magica Movies 1, 2, 3
Mushishi Next Chapter (specials 1 & 2)
Nyoro-n Churuya-san
Rozen Maiden (2013)
Sakura Trick
Shakugan no Shana (seasons 2 & 3)
Shingeki no Kyojin
Soul Eater
Space Dandy (seasons 1 & 2)
Spice and Wolf II
Suzumiya Haruhi-chan no Yuuutsu
Sword Art Online (& Extra Edition)
Toaru Kagaku no Railgun
Toaru Majutsu no Index
Welcome to the NHK

So many S titles. There were other small things and movies, but those were the big ones. Not quite New Years yet. But have a good one!
I will give Kyubey credit for going along with what he preaches.

At least when the world was about to end Kyubey was prepared to die with the magical girls he had created.

Did Kyubey run to high ground when Walpurgisnacht arrived? Or a specially stored spacecraft at any point the world was about to end? No, he stood his ground.

Kyubey was okay becoming a sacrifice for the world, too. He didn't run to safety, and he watched everything unravel as Wal destroyed Mitakihara.

Now, mind, contracting Madoka was his major goal, and he lacks emotion to the feelings of others around him. But even he's rational enough to run to a hidden spacecraft somewhere and fly into space.

One of the reasons this sticks out to me is the deadly peace in the fourth timeline in episode ten. Even after Madoka contracts and the world will be annihilated, he's as calm as ever. He makes no move but to sit by Homura's side and just see the view. It's not pretty, but Kyubey seems to have peace about what will transpire in the days to come.

Kyubey was technically a wanderer. If there are other Incubators on Earth and Kyubey was in charge of Japan, there was no way for him to contact them (and short range telepathy is only so useful). But he should've had access to an emergency spacecraft, if nothing else.

The Incubators were on Earth throughout history. Surely they kept the remnants of their old technology, or maybe they lost it at some point. Either way, if they're skilled enough to be out in space, technology should have been passed down through the generations of Incubators. It should be impossible Kyubey was the only one on the planet by Madoka's point in time.

Maybe he didn't have a ship, I don't know. I doubt that part of the story was even thought of, honestly. But you'd think with their emphasised greatness in technology Kyubey would have access to a spaceship hidden somewhere nearby. Maybe not directly in Mami's house, you know, but wherever he rests his paws at night. Since he didn't live with Mami in spite of Kyubey knowing her for a while.

Point is, I guess, at least the Incubators aren't cowards if you look at it this way. Kyubey was content to just stay where he was and watch his work come to fruition. Incubators might be little bastards, but they sink with their ship and know they're trying to do something better in the longrun. For Kyubey, he was just like the way he described humans to cattle; he was just one of the many Incubators out in the universe with a finished job. His race made him an exclusion to be saved and he still followed (what I will consider his ancestors') wishes. If he doesn't have a spacecraft, how would he know otherwise? It's all one big suicide mission, and I doubt the Incubators have lifespans of hundreds of years.

Kyubey was not as great of a sacrifice as Madoka. But neither did he mind dying.

Rebellion screws with this line of thought, though. But that is another story.
When Borders used to still be doing business back in 2008 or so I was approached by a grandmother who was looking to buy manga for her granddaughter.

She said I looked like I knew what I was doing in the manga section. This was highly inaccurate because I was merely looking at every shelf to see the offerings, but I was happy I at least looked more than oblivious. That might have factored into it and nobody else was around.

Anyway, she asked me for a recommendation. I asked what her granddaughter would like. She said cute things or romance.

Now this was the days before Yen Press’s Chi’s Sweet Home, a safe bet for a grandma if there ever was one. I’m not sure why I didn’t even rec Fruits Basket as wildly popular as it was, or maybe I could have defaulted to Naruto’s peak of craziness. I wasn’t very well-versed on manga titles in my early anime days, okay? In fact, I still need to read more. I’m mainly looking you, certain long CLAMP titles.

In the end I couldn’t think of anything but Cardcaptor Sakura.

So I trotted off to find the Tokyopop version of the Cardcaptor Sakura manga. Thing was, there was only a few copies left, and I remember the first two volumes were missing. Deciding there was not much i could do about the bad luck I pulled the third one off the shelf and hoped it would do.

The grandmother didn’t seem convinced. I explained I liked the series and it had a G-rating (which was important to her because she didn’t want a lot of violence). I think what nailed the coffin on the deal was that I showed her the cover art and told her she could return it if she had to. Then she thanked me and went on her merry way. Since I rarely went to Borders anyway I never saw her again.

Sometimes I wonder what happened. Did the girl like the gift? Now that I think about it, this may have been close to the holidays. Was it returned? Would they be okay with the relationships? Can I brag I created a CLAMP fan?

Back then the grandmother said the girl was about 12 or 13. By now that would make her a late teen. She could be doing fandom things for all I know.

So yes. I convinced an awesome manga buying grandmother to buy Cardcaptor Sakura, and I hope she bought the rest.

My family would never buy me manga. I wonder what other grandparents have bought manga like this.
People who mysteriously amscray after the first RP sex scene.

Yeah, yeah, I have done a few sex scenes in my time. Just a few. Sue me, I like romance. What's more, I enjoy plotting romance and the intimacy between characters. But something just had me thinking about this topic recently even though it has not been an issue on my side for a while.

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I think I'm beginning to enter a part of my life I don't really want to be in. I want to go back.

I've started English major classes this summer. I took a class which helps with literary criticism and another for beginner's journalism. I love English to pieces, but this means I have to truly figure out what I want to connect with my life. This will probably be the creative writing track, because I honestly can't get myself to do education as a literature prof.

But here is herein where my huge problem lies. I've written stories for school and I've written some things I've posted online (some of which are here since this is my all purpose personal/fic journal). But I've never really finished a true, long story. Most of my projects have either ended abruptly or never lifted off the ground properly. Heck, I can't even write a decent one-shot without the pressure. Sad, yes. Even in the last few years my writing has matured to the point where I don't cringe physically when I see my sentences and grammar.

Okay, I'm possibly exaggerating a tad. I write a lot. There's a lot of ideas tumbling around in my head, and more recently, slightly begun one-shot fanfics on my computer. They're just waiting for me to open the document and plant my fingers on the keyboard. And I have written one-shots before. Not in the way I seriously should concentrate on, however.

I don't like this. I don't. It makes me frustrated with boatloads of ideas. I really need to write.

I want a good story I can call mine and only mine because I poured my heart and soul and sweat and probably even blood into it, fanfic or original story. I have ideas for the Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha and Tokyo Babylon/X universes to start with. I've started writing them out, but this isn't good enough to get the ball rolling.

Where am I ending with this?

What makes me the saddest is I think I'm finally going to drop most of my roleplaying.

I've been roleplaying for over 10 years. That's one decade. Since I was a child. It helped improve my writing style and I met so many friends. But it also eats up a lot of time I need.

Now don't get me wrong. I'll keep a few. I can't drop entirely, and several of my partners have died I never tried to replace. Small replies are easy to respond to.

But a decay has already started since last year. I stopped caring as much to do some RPs earlier this year. I realized I just don't want to do MxF pairings anymore, for example. Now I only want to do things I really care about because of time restraints, like anime fandoms, I've had quite a few original RPs in the past, though, so I love that as well.

I have said I wanted to be a copy writer and editor. Editing is a major, major pain, though I get quite into my sentence structures and word choices when I'm editing my own writing. I was wondering if I should try my hand at betaing fanfics? Not original stuff. I want to do things I really like first to get the juices flowing. I still don't know about this, I have to see in the upcoming months.

This is a new point in my life. I can feel it, and I have this whole year. I just need to become serious and rid myself of the distractions. I will have to budget my time wisely.
Not so much.

This summer I wanted to keep up with some anime. I highly doubted I would, and all I've really done is tune into Sailor Moon Crystal. Tomorrow is Rei's intro ep, after all.

Other stuff I wanted to watch:

Fate/kaleid liner Prisma Illya 2wei!
Free! Eternal Summer
Sword Art Online II
Yama no Susume Second Season

The first season of Prisma Illya was enjoyable.
Apparently there's a kiss in the second season? Maybe I'll start this one soon.

I only suppose Free! Eternal Summer, too, but I'm stalled at ep 8 of S1.
I doubt that'll go anywhere soon.

I've heard this SAO season is awful. But I watched the first season, so.
I see Kirito and Asuna in screencaps. I thought it wasn't supposed to be about them?

I don't really have much to say about Yama no Susume S2 except I'm glad it's 15 minutes an ep and 24 eps to boot. The first series of this was also fun.

I haven't really figured what else to watch from the rest of the season.
I've been involved in reading fanfics to keep up regularly.
Probably a bit late on this, but whatever.

On July 5th I woke up to the rising sun and an urgency to watch an old anime revived. Namely, Sailor Moon: Crystal, which is a show from my childhood that’s still close to my heart. I woke up an hour after the worldwide broadcast (it airs at 6 AM my time). I panicked. But details, details. I just wanted to be one of the first to watch and enjoy it.

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I waited two years. Now it will finally happen. So Sailor Moon Crystal is going to come out soon, huh. July 5th! It'll be on a Saturday and early in the morning for me. But I'll be sure to try to stay up and catch it on as it's out. It's not like I don't watch Saturday morning stuff as it is when I can. I don't know what to expect, though. It's supposed to be based on the manga and I haven't read any of it. I doubt I will in the next less than a month.

I'm one of those girls who watched Sailor Moon on Toonami and Cartoon Network back in the heyday. Yeah, I know. Enjoy the dub? Well. Kinda. There were still voices I remember liking. But maybe I should blame Sailor Moon for my love of the moon and rabbits. Scratch that, the rabbits I used to own did that to me. It had its impact regardless.

Eventually, if Crystal does well, I hope for it on Toonami. Since Viz has both Crystal and the original series as of now (with new dub to boot incoming of the original) these are likely possibilities. You're throwing away good money and ratings if you don't. But this is my fangirl dream. So far we haven't gotten Inuyasha: The Final Act. Now that's already five years old now? And I thought the original was old. How time flies. I don't know how those legal issues were cleared up for the original, but I'm happy!

I have yet to buy the Sailor Moon merch that's been out. I should, right? But I see the new Cardcaptor Sakura Nendoroids (Sakura and Tomoyo) coming out and I plan on jumping on those. Syoaran must be made even if he'll have less buys. CCS Nendoroids will probably only flop if in some alternate universe they create one for each card. Not to mention a collector's nightmare. But you didn't get that idea from me! -whistles innocently- Remember, though, Tomoyo will not be Tomoyo without a camera accessory that I can use go have her tape the Sakura nendo next to her. Just sayin'. There's also that BD from NIS for CCS I want to buy, or I wonder what the boxes for the JP version look like.

Speaking of magical girls, it has come to my wallet's attention Nanoha is getting the BD treatment in Japan! Nanoha's adorable self in glorious HD. Why are they doing this to me. Stop these good things. I don't have the DVDs, so I am incredibly tempted. Except that all three seasons will be a sizeable chuck of cash and that's at least about $700 without shipping included. That's really how it goes, but you know. Here I haven't gotten the first movie. Still gotta do that. And there's even more Nanoha merch I need that has nothing to do with the BD releases....

So I never bought the Madoka movies, either, and I'm late on the first two. I was kinda waiting to see if they'd get dubbed, I guess. Yeah, don't give me that look. Which I believe Aniplex of America says they'll do now. Rebellion came out last month. I know spoilers, but I have to watch it. But since that Rebellion movie is new and LE, why not. I have to watch it sometime because I couldn't go to the movie theater viewings so far away. Besides, this Akemi Homura figure exists for the Rebellion movie and I think I need it in my life to complete it. Why do you look so cool, Homura! Don't look at the price tag. Resist it.

Do you see this? I'm talking about a few magical girl shows and I have my hands full here.
So, what am I watching for the spring anime season and where am I at?

Black Bullet (4/13)
Gochuumon wa Usagi Desuka? (3/12)
Inugami-san to Nekoyama-san (3/12)
Love Live! School Idol Project 2nd Season (4/12)
Mahouka Koukou no Rettousei (4/26)
Mushishi Zoku Shou (4/12)
No Game No Life (4/12)
Ryuugajou Nanana no Maizoukin (3/11)
Soredemo Sekai wa Utsukushii (4/?)

I'm a little behind at the point of posting this in watching. Oh, well.

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